It's been a while...

...since I posted anything.  I have not been having such a great time lately.  I finally got some medical coverage so I went to the doctor and got a referral for a mental health specialist.  When I tried to make the appointment they said the next available slot was in August.  If you are diagnosed with severe depression how can they say to you, wait for over three months to get some help.  I already feel like no one gives a shit so I can include a whole new crop of people in that group.  I know they don't understand what an effort it took for me to even pick up the phone to make the appointment, they don't know me.  Everything takes effort.  Going to the pantry, taking out the garbage, waking up, writing.  I'm tired.  I don't know how much I have left in me to try anymore.