I have no excuse. I didn't have a bad childhood, I was never molested, I don't have a drug or alcohol problem. I'm fine? NOT! If you are deemed mentally ill because of one or more of these issues, they can handle that, they have treatments for that. However if you can't pinpoint a reason for your "problem", then you're not sick? I know how I feel. I am trying to tell you how I feel and you are understaffed, underpaid, overwhelmed with your own problems? Fine, then be prepared to sweep up the pieces when they fall.
Godammit, I need some help here. I don't know why I can't get out of bed. I don't know why I cry all the time. I don't know why I am not hungry and when I do eat every thing tastes like paper. I don't know why I want to die but at least I am trying to get some help so why don't you help me? When I tell you I am not taking my meds, you say "oh, you should take them". Yeah, that will help me remember. I can't even remember what day it is. I wake up and I can't tell if it's 7am or 7pm. I feel like my brain is turning inside out and morphing into something like oatmeal.
I feel like anything that ever made me happy has been taken away from me. I want it back